I want this kinda fun again
Mirage @ Vegas 02.09 w/ Amberae (my "twindian") and isKwe
I had an exhausting day on Saturday. Not physically exhausting, but emotionally exhausting. I have decided that I am bored. Yes bored. I have spent the past five weeks almost entirely devoted to schoolwork and writing. So basically I spent days upon days at home and staring at my wall in between writing feverishly. Oh the glamorous life of a writer. Really sexy.
Not so much. I am missing my friends and those fancy dinners I used to go out on, and the shopping jaunts along Queen Street West and the gym. Oh the gym, I miss the gym almost the most. My gym (the one I adore and can go to no other) is located in Liberty Village. I however am not. The commute there seems insurmountable on these cold winter days when the thought of even taking an hour of from my work seems like too much time off. So I have been neglecting my life, my body, my friends, and my fun factor all in the name of getting through school.
It has taken it's toll on me. I feel like I have lost the 'joie de vivre' that I had before. I have lost something in the last six months and I want it back. I used to love my life. Now I am not such a big fan. I am not sure what exactly this all means just yet. But I do know one thing, this girl has got to kick her life back in high gear beyond the books.
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its the winter blues...cabin fever...seasonal sadness.
ReplyDeletehad the SAME epiphany today, and it's been bugging me ALL day...
*sighs*
where's the sun and cash flow hiding out these days??
Yeah, it could be just the winter blues. Try to just make yourself get out and do things. Experiencing life is actually the biggest part of being a writer... the other part are the endless hours at a time of actually writing. Don't let those extreme shifts bother you so much. Ask your boyfriend to go on brisk walks, even in this cold weather, with you. Invite friends over for just whatever... When you do have time to make it to your gym, do so ASAP. If need be, exercise at home. Don't let those feelings overwhelm you to the point you lose focus on the little things you can do in between school and work. There's always a way around those blahs, staring you blankly in the eye socket... when you don't see it. Lastly, learn to be at ease with yourself... alone in the quiet. Some call it meditation, though I call it just being with myself, as I don't exactly meditate. Reach out to your friends online, too. Communicate, exchange ideas (pretty much what you already do in the blog, lol). Hell you can even bug me on twitter, if you wish. Tons of things you can do to replace what you miss. I've had to do all of this on my own.
ReplyDeleteI felt very sad and bored yesterday. I usually and full of life and eager to meet people, go places and be me! I know it is partially the winter blues for me as I was snowed in my cottage for 2 days because we got a foot of snow here. I also know for me it is because I just moved to a new place so its going to take time to meet some new people. I also love spending time outside and enjoy the sun. Right now it is not the best time of the year for the sun. The 21st is the darkest day of the year and then it gets brighter from there!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're bummed.
ReplyDeleteI like how you celebrate native culture. That's coming from an Ojibwe/Filipino/French mutt.
www.SeekingDirtyHairHalo.blogspot.com
I have talked with a lot of academic people this past week and its is a common problem when you have to make so many sacrifices to accomplish goals. One Columbia law professor was telling me this story about a law student who's parents made him leave his violin at home. She thought it was so sad because taking the time to do the things you love is what will pull you through. She said the longer you wait to be the person you want to be the greater the chance that you will never be. I took that as encouragement to try to make time for fun. :0)
ReplyDeleteisKwe - an infusion of sun and cash would most likely cure any type of woes. Okay hun let's get planning :P.
ReplyDeleteAnishinaabekwe- yes the winter blues may have gotten a hold on me. Definitely don't have the summer energy I once had ... but good to remember that it's all uphill after the 21st.
Dirty Hair Solo - so awesome to have you checking out my blog. Yes I am a bit of a "mutt" myself (Tsilhqot'in, Mexican, Cherokee, Dutch).
Charlotte- "She said the longer you wait to be the person you want to be the greater the chance that you will never be." This has been ringing in my head for the last day because it is so true. It is also something that I have known for over a year but I have been sticking it out so I can just finish this degree and get on with my life. Just. Four. Months. To. Go.
I;m not native but I was wondering... Do you guys have to move when you reach secondary school? Or are elementary and secondary schools near each other?
ReplyDeleteI;m not native but I was wondering... Do you guys have to move when you reach secondary school? Or are elementary and secondary schools near each other?
ReplyDeletepinkyaliya - it depends on the person and the community. Many communities that are more remote don't have secondary schools so the children have to be put in a boarding school during the week in order to attend high school. I was living in a Vancouver suburb after the age of six so I didn't have to worry about that (thankfully).
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