Every now and then I come to a point in my life where I realize I am obsessing about shopping. I have always been a crazy fashionista, demanding to wear only Guess, Esprit, and Mexx at ten years old and only allowing home accessories in shades of gray into my room at twelve. But there are certain key points where I realize I have taken things too far.
Today is one of those times. In a conversation late last evening, I was reminded of how I can be very consumptive. Not just fashion shopping, but home accessory shopping, dining out, thinking about the car I am going to buy, and even what kind of new organic fruit juice I will have at lunch. It has just gotten out of control. I swear it was only three months ago I was bringing Allen's juice boxes to work that I bought from No Frills.
I moved into my new place, then it all skyrocketed from there. I need new furniture for my place, I need new towels, new sheets. Heck, I need a new closet full of clothes to go along with this new condo. Hmm, then definitely a new bag. A girl who lives in a condo downtown and dines on King Street definitely needs a better bag. Definitely not Coach, but perhaps Miu Miu. That I could probably pick up for $600 or so right? That sounds reasonable, especially when you compare it to Prada and Louis Vuitton. Practically a steal. I think some student loan funds should be allocated for this purchase. Forget the fact that my student loans are mile high, because I got one more year of school so I can forget about the huge monthly payments for just a little longer. In fact, if I move to the US maybe I won't even have to think of them at all (jk).
So, here I am all caught up in a little consumptive web wondering how I even got here. I must get back out. Maybe go to Value Village and get some shopping done today. Maybe even cancel all dinners out for a week and start to cook at home. Maybe even bring my lunch to work. If only I didn't spend my grocery money on that ticket to LA. Oops!
"An unempowered personality cannot complete the task of its soul. It languishes in an inner sense of emptiness. It seeks to fill itself with external power, but that will not satisfy it. This sense of emptiness, or something missing, or of something wrong, cannot be healed by satisfying the wants of the personality. Gratifying needs that are base upon fear will not bring you to the touchstone of purpose. No matter how successful the personality becomes in accomplishing its goals, those goals will not be enough. Eventually it will hunger for the energy of its soul. Only when the personality begins to walk the path that its soul has chosen will it satisfy its hunger."
~ "The Seat of the Soul" by Gary Zukav (Ch. XVI: Trust)
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LOL loved your posting! Yes i must say i have made my lunch and brought it to work for a month just so that i could save and justify paying 800 for a handbag. I must say bags are my weakness. So any new purchases since this post??
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